Learning how to eat (during treatment!)
Those of you who know me, know that I have what you might call a ferocious appetite. Some people eat to live. I live to eat. I just love food! So this whole anti-nausea, appetite changing business has been a tough adjustment. I think I’m starting to catch on though.
The trick is, as soon as I have a craving and get an appetite for something – I need to go for it! It’s almost as if my body demands a certain food. Perhaps it wants the vitamins and minerals in that food, or perhaps it just knows that food will make me happy. Whatever the reason, the scrambled eggs with homefries and toast did the trick for me this morning. Mmm…
Of course tomorrow, that same meal could disgust me. That is the tricky part to all of this. Every day a new set of taste buds arise. I dunno, maybe it’ll be a good opportunity to try new things; branch out! I do know one thing: I will continue eating. And with every meal, I will have the knowledge that the cancer is losing this battle. Period.
Today started off pretty bad – very sick, weak and full of nausea. As I write this though, I’m feeling much better. Staying on top of things today with drugs and food – major allies in this battle. Got to spend some quality time with Dad at the hospital today too and with my Mom at home. So easy to take that time for granted, and sad that it takes something like this to make it happen. But I really am enjoying it so much.
Ubuntu. It’s an African Zulu word that means “I am because we are”. Many reading my blog will recognize the word as it is my all-time favorite – and I’m sure I’ll quote it many more times. It gets at the very essence of how we define ourselves as human beings. We are only human with and through other humans. That is the essence of humanity. Food and drugs are wonderful, don’t get me wrong. But Ubuntu will truly be my saving Grace.